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It has been a hectic month out here in Kansas! I have been dealing with some issues of my own, and working through those has kept me from focusing 100% on my business. I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder with panic attacks, as well as a long-time battle with depression. I've been working through some demons the last 6 weeks, and I feel as though I'm finally making progress. I'm well-medicated now, I think between the doc and the therapist we've finally found the right balance of everything without me having to be totally dependent on Xanax to get through the day. I still need it occasionally, I can normally tell when my anxiety level is getting high and a panic attack is gonna be rearing it's ugly head, and I can take a Xanax to curb it. I'd rather just not have the panic attacks all together, but I'll do what I gotta to try and live/feel/have a normal life. I have made the decision not to let this control me, and not to let this keep me from being happy. I know I can do it, and I know I'm just about that stubborn that I'll make it happen. :D

Whew! There was the gut spilling! Heh. I only really have time for a quick note today, but I have updated the Etsy shop so please please please go check it out! Lots of cute stuff now and I've made it to the 50+ items in shop mark!

Totally been obsessed with making fabric flowers the last few weeks...let me know what you think!! And a another random side note...my amazing hubby got me a ticket to Florence + the Machine when they come to Kansas City in October!!! I'M SO EXCITED!! Florence gets me through and gets me grooving when I'm sewing/stressed/happy/sad, and this is probably my ultimate concert dream right now...and I get to go!! Woo hoo! Alright, that's all for now, thanks for stopping by!

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